Dudes, I know. It's been a while. And I understand there's that unwritten rule of blogging that if you expect other people to write on their blog you gotta write in your own. But it's been a little...interesting lately.
First off, I am the newest volunteer worker at the SL temple! The day I got my name tag I took a picture of it with my phone the second I got out of the temple. It's neat to be there in a little different capacity than initiatories and sessions. It's been a very positive, sweet experience. I work once a week at the appointment desk. They run a tight ship over there. No stone is left unturned, no "t" uncrossed...that is a house of order if there ever was one!
The show I just finished, "Little Women" was just awesome. I had a great time. It's such a great, timeless story and a fantastic, rich character to play. It was definitely my favorite role so far and I feel so lucky I got to do it! It's a thrilling experience to throw yourself into a role and become someone else. By becoming that someone else you learn about yourself and about all the great things that character and their story has to offer. All the things it can teach you and the audience.
Sammie brought her mom, Brynn, to see me in the show. They came to visit me in the dressing room before the show started.
She sat still through the entire show! I was so proud of her! (PS- that's not my Diet Coke in the background. Me on caffeine would be a very bad thing, trust me.)
Blah, blah, blah. I'm sorry, I was waxing poetic. On to more juicy stuff. I broke up with my boyfriend, Ricky. It was actually pretty mutual, to tell the truth. We got along really, really well. We had so much in common, especially when it came to the gospel and our long term goals. But we just weren't in love. We were together almost five months and it was work to feel romantic love. We had all the great things any relationship could ask for: we went to the temple together once or twice a month, we shared scriptures together, we went to firesides, sang together, prayed together...but it just wasn't happening. However, I know it was an experience we were blessed to have and we will benefit from it in future relationships.
Still...I'm alone and it's not fun. A few years ago, I had a significant, serious relationship that wasn't right because I was thinking far too much with my heart and my emotions, being caught up in everything. This significant, serious relationship wasn't working and I couldn't see it because I was thinking too much with my head, what made sense, and what seemed the best on paper. I hope and can strike a balance between the two next time.
Now, I know what you are thinking, "Geez, this girl is almost 25 and she's still not married. There must be something really wrong with her. I'll bet she has a personality disorder, or she's socially handicapped, or she has really bad B.O." Okay, maybe it was just me that was thinking that, but it's not true. I date a lot, I hang out a lot, I flirt shamelessly. I'm choosy but not too choosy. I'm friendly, but not too friendly. I have a lot of fun, but always have my end goal in mind. So why am I not married, when it's what I want so badly?
I'm not exactly sure, but I can tell you that I have had some very sweet, meaningful experiences over the last 6 or 7 years that I would not have been able to have had I been married at 18 like I wanted to be. I've gained some wonderful, lifetime friends, learned more about who I am, sung my heart out all over the country, but most importantly, I've been part of other people's sweet, meaningful experiences. And it all happened while I was kicking and screaming, wishing I was married.
Most of the time, life doesn't turn out to be what you thought it would be. But if you are prayerful and willing to "do (ALL) the things the Lord commands," life will turn out better. Much better.
Well, if you skipped some of the above squishy, gooey stuff and are just tuning back in now, don't feel bad. You didn't miss much, just me thinking out loud, trying to organize my crazy thoughts and probably mostly for my own benefit. If you only remember one thing from reading my post today, let it be this: I just saw the Transformers movie for the first time. Wow. I watched it twice in 24 hours and I don't really watch movies or TV! Watch it. Let it change your life, too. Peace out.
First off, I am the newest volunteer worker at the SL temple! The day I got my name tag I took a picture of it with my phone the second I got out of the temple. It's neat to be there in a little different capacity than initiatories and sessions. It's been a very positive, sweet experience. I work once a week at the appointment desk. They run a tight ship over there. No stone is left unturned, no "t" uncrossed...that is a house of order if there ever was one!
The show I just finished, "Little Women" was just awesome. I had a great time. It's such a great, timeless story and a fantastic, rich character to play. It was definitely my favorite role so far and I feel so lucky I got to do it! It's a thrilling experience to throw yourself into a role and become someone else. By becoming that someone else you learn about yourself and about all the great things that character and their story has to offer. All the things it can teach you and the audience.
Sammie brought her mom, Brynn, to see me in the show. They came to visit me in the dressing room before the show started.
She sat still through the entire show! I was so proud of her! (PS- that's not my Diet Coke in the background. Me on caffeine would be a very bad thing, trust me.)Blah, blah, blah. I'm sorry, I was waxing poetic. On to more juicy stuff. I broke up with my boyfriend, Ricky. It was actually pretty mutual, to tell the truth. We got along really, really well. We had so much in common, especially when it came to the gospel and our long term goals. But we just weren't in love. We were together almost five months and it was work to feel romantic love. We had all the great things any relationship could ask for: we went to the temple together once or twice a month, we shared scriptures together, we went to firesides, sang together, prayed together...but it just wasn't happening. However, I know it was an experience we were blessed to have and we will benefit from it in future relationships.
Still...I'm alone and it's not fun. A few years ago, I had a significant, serious relationship that wasn't right because I was thinking far too much with my heart and my emotions, being caught up in everything. This significant, serious relationship wasn't working and I couldn't see it because I was thinking too much with my head, what made sense, and what seemed the best on paper. I hope and can strike a balance between the two next time.
Now, I know what you are thinking, "Geez, this girl is almost 25 and she's still not married. There must be something really wrong with her. I'll bet she has a personality disorder, or she's socially handicapped, or she has really bad B.O." Okay, maybe it was just me that was thinking that, but it's not true. I date a lot, I hang out a lot, I flirt shamelessly. I'm choosy but not too choosy. I'm friendly, but not too friendly. I have a lot of fun, but always have my end goal in mind. So why am I not married, when it's what I want so badly?
I'm not exactly sure, but I can tell you that I have had some very sweet, meaningful experiences over the last 6 or 7 years that I would not have been able to have had I been married at 18 like I wanted to be. I've gained some wonderful, lifetime friends, learned more about who I am, sung my heart out all over the country, but most importantly, I've been part of other people's sweet, meaningful experiences. And it all happened while I was kicking and screaming, wishing I was married.
Most of the time, life doesn't turn out to be what you thought it would be. But if you are prayerful and willing to "do (ALL) the things the Lord commands," life will turn out better. Much better.
Well, if you skipped some of the above squishy, gooey stuff and are just tuning back in now, don't feel bad. You didn't miss much, just me thinking out loud, trying to organize my crazy thoughts and probably mostly for my own benefit. If you only remember one thing from reading my post today, let it be this: I just saw the Transformers movie for the first time. Wow. I watched it twice in 24 hours and I don't really watch movies or TV! Watch it. Let it change your life, too. Peace out.
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